Whoever it is that I’m going to hurt in the future, I apologize
I don’t want to hurt you,
but I don’t know how to love anymore,
not like I’m sure if I ever did, or if I knew the meaning behind it.
I probably loved you, or you probably loved me,
or wanted me so much, but I just pushed you away.
If I hurt you, please, forgive me,
I just want to protect my heart from love, since,
apparently I don’t know how to take it.
I hope that you won’t hate me,
it’s bad enough I’m not liking myself,
but I’m working hard to help me get better.
So, if I hurt you in the process,
Remember I’m trying to grow.
Please understand that I don’t hate you, I don’t want to hurt you.
But things happen and I apologize
for letting whatever come over me and interfere
with whatever we have here.